i'm going to be honest

This picture kind of freaks me out.

i'm trying very hard not to hate everything that i produce in studio, thus it's taking even longer than usual. :( / :) / :( ?

heights, south korea

BLAH BLAH BLAH

I totally forgot about one class being cancelled today. I was late late late and worried, only to find the doors locked and unsure if I was just locked out or if they really locked the doors to the auditorium if you were late. It took me until the stairwell to remember that there wasn't class and everybody was locked out. : /

I'm finally over that "boo being back is weird" feeling. It's schooltime and the weather is super and I bought myself some pens and chinese food and I'm filling in my new planner and putting cheese on top of whatever food I cook and now it's time to get over whatever down feelings are left after all this indulgence. I like Lawrence so much!

I still have the wound I made in my left index finger the night before I left. Before, it was a gaping hole in me that wouldn't shut in South Korea's cold, dry air, and then it was a dark brown lump inside of me in Malaysia's warm monsoon winds, and now it is a large surface scab, the edges white and flaking, tempting me to rip it off before I return home.
We'll see.

LEAVING

We're leaving Asia. We're leaving Singapore at 01/13 22:40 and leaving Seoul at 01/14 19:15. Even arriving in Seoul isn't arriving, no, not until Chicago maybe can I say I've arrived (but at 01/14 19:00, incidentally back in time from the departure from South Korea, so maybe this arrival is obscured by the overlap of the later, preceding departure) but my god, mark my words, 01/14 21:23, there is going to be an ARRIVAL! It will be so nice to be home and on my own on that lonely drive from my parents' to Lawrence, and the time for waiting is over! I'm on the plane on my first departure. It's time to go!

goodbye seoul!

It's 5:23 am and we're about to get on a bus to Daegu. It's further South, so hopefully it will be warmer. Seoul is amazing, despite the cold, and we stayed out until 2:30 this morning just drinking it all in. The rest will have to wait until later, but I can't wait to tell you about how impressive the fabric of this city is! Come back with me one day?